surprise!

you may be surprised to hear this, but i am a christian. not that dopey kind you read about in the true-crime magazines. i'm more practical and realistic in my walk. more about that later.

lately, i've been having this urge to make a major change in my life. a risky move, to be sure.

here's the thing: i feel like it's God leading me to do this, but i haven't actually gotten the word from Him on it.

it's more like this unnatural unrest the way things are. before you start thinking weird shit about this, it's not like i'm looking to undergo SRS or anything. i'm not looking to leave my wife or family, just making a change that falls well within (probably) everyone's religious beliefs. so nothing illegal or immoral.

God's been giving me these verses and little sermons that line up so well with this. if the decision wasn't so big, i'd have done it based on the revelations alone. but God doesn't normally speak to me like this. He tends to be pretty direct with me, but, if this Him, not this time.

i believe in God. i believe He can take care of us no matter what i do. i can't stop Him from providing for us if i tried. hell, i was unemployed, finishing another degree while my wife was making minimum wage, and He helped us meet our financial obligations somehow. it was a just in time thing. we'd not have much, if any, money; and then, BAM! just enough. sometimes a little extra for us to play with.

i think i'll end up doing it, but i just wish that i had a fellow christian (besides my wife, since she'll back me up no matter what) to talk this through with. unfortunately, i don't have the luxury of knowing any near me.